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Kim Hamilton Anthony tells Her Story
former US National Gymnastics team member.
For years I searched for a sense of value and worth.
My search began early. My mother was always there for me, providing for me as best she could, letting me know that I was loved. But my father was a different story. It seemed I had little or no worth in his eyes. He would disappear for weeks on end, even failing to come home for Thanksgiving and Christmas. Consequently, as a little girl, I didn't think I had enough value for him to even come home.
I remember being six or seven when my father taught me how to roll joints (marijuana cigarettes). In my young mind my ability to roll joints meant I finally had some worth in his eyes. Once I sat in the home of a drug dealer and watched this dealer make "rocks", thinking 'If I could learn how to do this then my daddy would be proud of me.'
In retrospect it seems pathetic that I would think making rock cocaine would be something I could do to earn my father's love, but that's all I knew. That was life. That's how I grew up. Only years later, in college, would I realize my lifestyle was not the norml and that I had been searching for worth and value in all the wrong places.
One day I was watching the Olympics on television and was inspired to be more than a proficient drug handler and more than a welfare recipient. I wanted to be a gymnast!
For a little black girl in the hood becoming a gymnast was a crazy dream and there wasn't a day that went by that someone didn't remind me of it.. People around me told me I was wasting my time. Gymnastics, after all, is a "white girl" sport. Even after I began training and reached a certain level of proficiency, my coaches became negative. They made it clear that they didn't think I had what it took to be the best.
In spite of the negative voices surrounding me, I continued to pursue my dream.
I found myself on the U.S. National Team traveling all around the world representing the United States and became the first Black female to be recruited and receive a scholarship to compete for UCLA's gymnastics team.
And still I was searching for approval.
Even during a successful career at UCLA, which led to four NCAA titles, six All-American honors, and induction into the UCLA Hall of Fame, I found myself on an emotional roller coaster. When I did well, I felt good about myself. When I didn't perform well, I felt worthless.
Then, the summer after my freshman year, I was hanging out with some friends back home in Virginia and found myself staring down the barrel of a gun. In that moment, it didn't matter what others thought of me. It didn't matter that I didn't seem to have value to my father. Nor did it matter that I had just won a national championship a few months before. In that moment, everything I had looked toward to give me a sense of value was suddenly worth absolutely nothing.
I was fortunate to walk away from that situation unharmed, but I walked away thinking, 'there has to be more to life than this.'
That very next year, I met someone who explained to me that there indeed is so much more to life than I had been experiencing. He shared with me that God loves me, has a plan for my life, and that I can have a personal relationship with God through Jesus Christ.
That's what I had been missing. That's what I had been searching for.
I asked Jesus to enter my life and make me the person He wanted me to be.
Since then, my life and attitude have changed. No longer do I look to the opinions of others, or my own accomplishments, to give me value. Now I look to the unconditional love of God, knowing that He created me as a unique individual with a very special purpose.
The change didn't take place over night. But the more I experience the love of God, the more I realize how much worth and value I have.
My search for a sense of worth and value is over. I found it in the unconditional love of God. And His love will never leave me nor change.
Kim has a book called Unfavorable Odds telling her complete story. She is also a traveling speaker.
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