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My Dreams Were too Small
When I was a young girl, my dreams weren't much different than most girls of my generation: To get married, have children and keep a lovely yard. But through a unique and exciting series of events, the Lord graciously showed me that my dreams were too small. Of course He wanted to give me these precious gifts, but God wanted to give me much more:
An Opportunity To Change
The brochure was advertising a conference by an organization I had never heard of before - Campus Crusade for Christ. I assumed it was for college students, seeing as we had four children by then, and decided to hang onto it, thinking my husband, Marvin, might be interested in taking our family to the event.
What is the Abundant Christian Life?
One thing that was missing, however, was my mother. She had died that May and I missed her very much. But God used this time of mourning to help me think seriously about eternity. I knew I wanted to see my mother again, but I wasn't sure I would go to heaven when I died, and that?s where I assumed she was.
A few days after I read the brochure, my brother-in-law Ed Goerzen dropped in and asked if Marvin had mentioned the conference to me. I told him he hadn't, but I was very interested. When he encouraged us to go, I listened, because Ed had changed a lot in the past few months. Even though he had always had a pleasing personality, he now radiated the joy of Christ. I really wanted that joy too. In fact, when my brother-in-law left, I prayed,
The thought, "total commitment" crossed my mind, but I quickly pushed it aside. After all, I was already involved in many leadership roles in my church and community and I certainly didn't want more things to do. But a quiet voice inside of me said,
I chose to ignore this voice, but I didn't forget it.
Off to the Conference
During one of the messages, the speaker asked us to write a list of our acts and attitudes we knew were displeasing to God. I have to admit my list was much longer than I thought it would be. Then I claimed the promise in 1 John 1:9,
I felt so clean inside when I was done.The next morning we heard a message on how to be filled with the Holy Spirit. This was the moment of decision. To experience the abundant life I wanted, I needed to give control of my life completely to God. This was the total commitment He had told me about and I had rejected weeks earlier. However, this time I had no hesitation in giving it to Him. My prayer went something like this:
Immediately, I was filled with such joy and love, I couldn't contain myself. I read recently that in the deep south, people call this breakthrough to a personal relationship with Jesus Christ as, "I was seized by the power of great affection." For a reserved person like me, this was definitely a supernatural experience.I realized I also had to make the Bible my authority from that day onward. Anything that did not agree with God's Word would be disregarded.
The Great Commission
"Did I Hear You Correctly, Lord?"
Soon after that, I received an e-mail from a young man named Brent. He said, "I saw your web sites and could do a lot better than what you are doing." So I asked him what he would do differently and he listed 20 things. To make a long story short, a month later, he became our web designer - and a very good one at that. A month later, a talented young woman applied to be our writer and editor. As time went by, God continued to answer my cry for help by adding talent to our team.
Another obstacle we faced was that evangelistic web sites don't generate funds, so raising money became part of my job description. Once again, the Lord provided two couples who saw the possibilities of reaching into countries, offices and hearts through the Internet. Since then, together with a committed team and donors, God has enabled to build eight successful websites.
"Yes, Katherine, I am in Control"
Do you sometimes feel as if your dreams are too small? Are you looking for a more satisfying relationship with God, an opportunity to make a truly significant impact on the world? If so, I encourage you to commit your life totally to God, to ask the Holy Spirit to fill you completely. If you already believe in Jesus Christ, God has given you His Holy Spirit to help you live life according to His perfect plan. Why not pray this simple prayer and by faith invite Him to fill you with His Spirit?
If you prayed this prayer today, we would love to hear from you and send you some follow-up material that will help you grow in your new relationship with God.